1. sleep in
2. talk to or email with friends I hadn’t spoken to in quite a while
3. daydream about a get-away into the sun
4. finish my PhD
5. think (a lot)
6. worry (not too much)
7. realise that I am actually, finally and really done with something I have worked on for almost 5 years
As I am going through a little bit of difficulty keeping up the work of the Portfolio Project, I try to focus my energy on my peace and conflict work. I’ll be heading back to Israel in June this year, and the thought alone brings back so many impressions and vivid memories, some good, some fearful, that I once again wonder about the fascination this piece of land has for me. Well.
My former boss has pointed out a new website to me, Israel’s backyard, which documents the day-to-day things the occupation brings with it. Please take a moment to check it out, it is eye opening for all those who have never stood at a checkpoint, who have never been stopped by a soldier leisurely pointing a gun at your car, who have never seen the absurdity of people hating each other without ever having exchanged a single word.
Please look, because this needs to BE SEEN.
Time goes by. Hours passing, minutes falling like raindrops, slowly, slowly, until they vanish with a splash. No words today, no words, no words, my lips too tired, my thoughts too reluctant to be given a voice.
A prayer and a wish, thought out loud, will have to do. Where is the light?
Outside the snow is melting, and part of me is changing, too. But where to?
One “super-infection” later (this is my doc’s word, not mine), I’m back, with more pressure and totally out of rhythm. One week in bed can do that to you. I will have to get back into work-mode, getting-up-early-mode, focus-and-stop-complaining-mode.
We’ll see how THAT goes.